I had been up there several times before– not naked, of course. Then I sat there during that whole meeting with my legs spread wide. Xxnx Some evenings or weekends, I would slip into the park on a small path that deer have worn between the park and the small grassy area behind our building. Then I lubed Big Blue and squatted down to push him in. Then I lubed Big Blue and squatted down to push him in. If I gave in too soon, I would usually punish myself, sometimes by spanking myself, sometimes by filling the bathtub totally full of cold water and then forcing myself to stay in it for five or ten minutes. I stood bouncing my knees for a long time working up the guts to actually jump. Actually, everyone who wasn’t in the meeting was buried out in the main
