How could I possibly have survived having all of that inside me? Xxx The answer is so obvious that I was surprised that people even suggested that I don’t love my husband. I’m only sorry that Paul can’t see this, I think he’d really love to see me so fulfilled”. I was mortified that such dirty and explicit talk excited me as much as it did. The second man came along two years later; he was my first long term love, well a few months anyway. I honestly don’t know what came over me; this stranger had sparked wicked feelings that angered me and made me feel terrible inside and yet so very different, so very excited. He took hold of my hand and said “You’re apprehensive, it’s not too late and I’d understand if you leave”.
